Hear say is confusing...

Hear say is confusing,
Especially in regards to matter of the heart,
Seeds pushed down so deep that they tear me apart.

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(free write)

Knowing what you feel for me is hard.
Why would you tell someone else and not me?
Why would they tell me when you told them to keep it to themselves?
Can I trust what they say?

If it is true, I am afraid.
I am afraid that I may do something that will cause you to stop your feelings for me.

The things that we know can change us.
If you have not yet spoken the truth to me that means that we are not ready to be changed.
By simply knowing I have been changed.
What more will consequently be changed?

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Hear say is confusing,
Especially in regards to matter of the heart,
Seeds pushed down so deep that they tear me apart.